So yeah the flobber is down again -.- I really wonder what's wrong with it.

ANYWAY although I know no one actually tags, but I've just dug out the OLD tagboard I had 2 years back. Yes, exactly 2 years back. The tags are super outdated too :D And it doesnt even fit this theme... but well, it's up as you can see at the sidebar!~

Hope some ahem interesting "Sun Ran"s leave more tags...

Well yes I have :D

Does that call for a celebration?

Unfortunately, no!

So anyway OP is on Friday the 13th!!! Such a suay day, then after that I'm leaving for Nepal from 15-25 Nov, and I'll miss the BBQ party at Miss Ooi's house. After that I'll be back in Singapore, I hope I can slog away and finish all the holiday assignments. I've already seen some really used Maths books, those people probably finished all the questions.

Or maybe I shall get Sims3 and get addicted and flunk next year again D:

I want everything here!
http://hidel.co.kr/

Time to plan for a new planner to plan my life!

Check out this banana one:
http://hidel.co.kr/NCMIM/Shop/Cart/showitem.html?itemID=6579&item_subidkey=A52B295

Haha I doubt I'll get that one even though its yellow =x

I wonder if I really have to blog everytime I'm screwed up with stuff. Today is screwed totally.

First I ought to be happy I FINALLY got a new computer that is functional and all, and I can forget about the old cranky computer that dies with that graphic card and visual memory problem. THEN, the problem immediately presents. This new computer decides to not have microsoft word!!! Or microsoft office or whatever, and I can't install any because I haven't got the CD. Well actually it does have some trial version except there's some problems with it and I can only use it 25 times and I need to do pw and now I can't because there's no word.

And it doesnt have pdf nor photoshop nor any software that I need to do pw and other stuff... so I guess I have to install one by one - it takes time!!! Which I dont have much.

Second I think I am pissing a lot of people off, or complaining too much. I'm very irritated as well:

After promos and getting horrible results I have to do bio homework. Don't care about that, I need to do pw. Never mind, but commitments in band, OCIP, SL. Never mind, it's manageable. Then I can't believe I have to resort to discussion on msn and it isn't feasible because either people aren't replying or don't want to come online. Now I know how my pw group feel which is why I think we shouldn't use online discussion in the first place. Or maybe it's all my fault once again...

Then once I am irritated, I shouldn't infer or conclude. Wrong conclusions and accusations kill. Do I have to spend a long time inferring that people think I'm lying or purposely avoiding or very uncooperative or irritating?

I want someone to talk to. I can't find anyone. I'm surprised at how much I managed to tolerate tonight though, normally I would have blasted out WHAT I REALLY THINK and piss people off more. Oh well, I have mumbled quite a lot here anyway, just not on anyone's face. I want to go off and sleep now seriously. Heck care about SL, everyone's not replying. I can't help thinking you are playing now~ even if you aren't, please don't sound so irritated, but I really need to get things done, it's been 4 months for goodness sake.

This is getting so screwed, graphic card of the computer is dying, takes super long to load videos and graphics and photoshop!!!

And then, other aspects are screwded as well ._.
My life is going wired.

Well, at least one accomplishment for today is that I woke up early and went jogging with Jia Min, although it's quite a failure as well. Then I came back and slept more, I must be really tired. I love sleeping, I sleep so much everday. More than I'm eating...

So I have to wake up early again tomorrow. That's so many days in a row waking up at 7am!!! Saturday was PW, and at Pioneer and I forgot to bring my phone. It's just hitting me hard that I'm over reliant on my phone and I don't remember anyone's number except my house/dad/Jaime/myself!! And Samantha's. D: I forgot Dew's number too. I'm getting old.

Friday was the worse day ever, absolutely went insane. Sorry D: I shall take my medicine on time and not be a burden on others!

Last night (or rather midnight) I went insane, I woke up and decided to go and clean my guinea pig's cage. Yes they need new owners because I have been nelecting them recently to sleep.

Anyway, I discovered a swarm (or whatever) of maggots in the cage. Yes gross crawly maggots. Yucks. I bet they stink but I can't smell it because of the blocked nose (and I feel so itchy blogging about them now) and I felt this fury. So I decided to destroy the maggots, instead of the usual pick them all up into a plastic bag and throw everything away.

So, I started at mama lemon detergent. I poured it into the bedding, to my horror, more maggots swarmed up. All those hidden inside the bedding all came to the surface. It was definitely gross.

And they didn't die with the detergent. It must have been too diluted.

So I tried bleach. Yikes, even I was dead stank to death by the bleah. I wanted to watch the bleah soak the maggot live out of those maggot bodies. But I think it takes time. So anyway the maggots took a while to die? But of course it wasnt enough to eradicate all of it.

Then I tried salt. Mehs, I wonder if the maggot was drowned in the lump of salt or killed by it. I decided that maybe maggots aren't like snails or slugs, the probably have some outer skin that prevents salt from killing them.

That's it. I tried the killer.

Fire!

I lit up the candle and burnt the maggots, and in the end I realised most of them were still hidden inside the beddings. And then the wax will drip and drown them instead of burning them to death. Yes, that's what happened. (And I had a hard time scarping out the wax later ==)

So I really wanted the fire to burn out the maggot life out of the maggots. So I placed newspaper on top of the bedding and burnt the whole thing. It was what you call shiok watching the fire burn, and the heat was melting me as well.

Well, plenty of maggots were all fried and charcoaled, but some stubborn ones remain... hidden inside the bedding. I think. Whatevers. Next time I will pour concentrated sulphuric acid and solid sodium hydroxide and insectiside and mercury and ethanol and whatevers. And I will use fire to burn everything after pouring ethane.

Okay, maybe this entry is totally disgusting, whether by the maggots or me. But I really wanna vomit now and my head still hurts and I have a low fever and it's really horrible. I hate being sick on the weekends, I didn't do anything today except - trying to rest, but I couldn't. I am burning with worries. Oh save me.

I think I'll go off to sleep now. Instead of burning any more maggots cos I scrubed the cage. And I'm exhausted, totally fainted after scrubing it, my parents thought I was eccentric, scrubing cages at 2am.

Well it really sucks to be sick on a weekend. You waste the whole of it while everyone is doing productive things.

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Let's see, I can't upload anything onto hotmail, so I'll have to put it here. People read it anyway!

So here's my passport scan, of my two weekend trips to Malaysia during the holidays.



Alright, here's my MC, for today.


Okay I'm kinda dumb, the doctor asked if I have school on Sat and I said no. So I've got a miserly MC for Friday - which is already over!

I know everyone is stressed, I am too. Good luck for all (:

Anyway this misunderstanding (whatever you call it) is getting from bad to worse, I can't help it. I am overly stressed with the postcards, I'm afraid I really cannot do it, it gives me nightmares and headaches and fevers. It makes me super angry and upset and unsatisfied - because I cannot seem to meet yours and the teacher's standard and MINE as well.

Communication is bad. Must have been my fault from the start, that I'm giving all sorts of excuses from meetings like going to Malaysia or being sick. The illusion is - I do not hang out with you'll as the other person does. But of course I hate late night meetings and I don't really check my phone at night as well.

And I have no time to study for promos. I'm very worried too, I am too tired/sleepy to listen during class and study at home. I have freaking lot of other designs and projects to do. Maybe I should give up designing altogether, because it takes up too much time (1 entire week is less than enough, let alone one weekend, go do yourself) and I demand too much.

Well, lastly, I am upset over whatever friendship misunderstandings it has caused. That hits me clearer and clearer each day, how I miss the older times. But there just seems to be some barrier now. Sigh.

Maybe I have a weird character to start with.

Look at this - most people do not do things that they don't like doing and don't enjoy doing.

If I don't like what I am doing and don't enjoy what I am doing, I will curse and complain, be very passive and try to hide from it.

If I like what I am doing and enjoy the time doing it, I will be passionate and work my heart and soul for it.

Alright, pardon the disgusting language, but the situation now is for you to decide.

Goodnight, I am going to sleep. Maybe my results are gonna suffer, but I don't want to end up in hospital or at the doctor's everyday. Or take medicine as staple food.